Mystical experiences #142: JR from Dallas (the late actor Larry Hagman)

[The fear of death has] … totally, absolutely gone from my life, at this stage. I don't know what it's gonna be when that moment comes. You can't ever predict that, but I don't fear it now. I do fear pain and immobilization and all the things that go with being old, but I don't fear death, because I know there's

"Oh, God!

That was tremendous!

It was sexual,

a real sexual experience"

another level. I've been there. I've been there twice […] I mean, it was wonderful. And there was one extra thing in that particular out-of-body experience, psychic experience, that I envisioned - that we're all like those ferns that curl up and they get bigger and bigger and bigger and they grow up and then they explode, you know, and they're beautiful? I envision us as all of that and all of the life force that we have. It was kind of a mixture of animistic and soul and we are all of that, everything with soul [...] We're growing all the time. And that pulse went along with my song, which was a pulse, da-da-da-da-na, da-da-da-da. And this thing would explode and the life force like sperm would come out of that explosion and then it'd wrap back up again and I'd get the song going and it would pulse and pulse and pulse and pulse and pulse and then, boom! Spread our seed through the universe. Woo! Boy! That was different […] The pulsating and the striving to spread our seed, the striving for survival of existence of our genes, whatever it is. Oh, God! That was tremendous! It was sexual, a real sexual experience and there I was, lying wide open. I could see myself having that experience at the same time. It was very odd and very, kind of comforting, in a way, to have a new experience, one I had never even envisioned before, that we were animal, vegetable and the desire and the strength and the striving to survive was always there, in us. That wears you out! Boy! […] We're so infinitesimal in the whole scheme, in the universe. If you look out there and you see hundreds of billions and trillions of stars with systems as big as our whole Milky Way, it's just infinite, I guess. Could there be a finite end? I think that death and LSD go hand and glove. If you have a large chance of having an enlightening, life-enhancing experience, or making death easier for you, even enjoyable and something to look forward to, what's wrong with that?

See the full interview at MAPS: http://www.maps.org/news-letters/v13n1/13125hag.html